Projects
MediaCow Touch 2
This week, I have definitely got myself feeling the squeeze to complete this project with the aim for the possibly unrealistic deadline of June 8, 2025. I have been considering a new schedule. My parents won't like it, I won't like it but I am so sick of this project and the fact I haven't delivered on time; October 2024.
All I can think of is that photo of me working on the project in July 2021 at that beach house in the Outer Banks and how I would be doing the exact same thing if I did not cram this project now.
The background is not visible in the photo, but I was just there, on the same ThinkPad T430s, same ideas, same motivation.
By May 31, 2025, this motivation died out once again. I know I am close to the end, with so many pointless things have being cut out of MediaCow Touch 2 Lite "Curitiba" but it feels like there are things that are still missing.
Tablets are basically just a computer, a screen and a battery. Likely what started the complications of random things like the side-mounted display and Linux-powered embedded controller were because I felt that it was just too simple for a project that has practically defined me for five years now. At this point I just want an x86 tablet.
The Website
This section covers the website itself, not development of StaticSite.
I have been applying some fixes, including having meta tags not be present when their value is empty, causing validation errors.
Personal
This was definitely an emotionally heavy week, going into great introspection about loss, emotional numbing and trauma.
There's been a lot of reflection on identity; how it gets reinforced, reshaped or made visible through the things I make, the symbols I attach to them and how I emotionally respond to media. Certain patterns re-emerged, particularly around the idea of gentleness and emotional depth existing within environments that are otherwise cold, demanding or harsh.